last night i had a dream and i really wish i wouldn't have.
but it was a good dream.
it felt SO REAL.
i woke up smiling and content.
and then saw the hotel room and the bright desk clock flashing 4 A.M.
i stopped smiling.
and so once again, i have come to the realization that the people that i wish to see, the moments i would love to relive over and over...
... they are the ones that hurt me the most.
i should be happy enough with the people that have stuck with me through it all.
and not base my happiness upon one who hasn't.